light to see dark

by annie bacon & her OSHEN

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1.
I saw you in the yard With the scissors at your arm And I know it must be hard Not knowing where it comes from Not knowing why it hurts Why you cry all the time You are from me, you are mine So maybe I should tell you About the time that came before you The women in your line You carry their pain You carry mine You come from Ireland Where the grass grows green and thick Where women make a life Of growing old inside their hunger Being told to ignore The loss of all that's torn asunder Our people starved and struggled We lost our language and our land And though we crossed the wide Atlantic The demons of our lost ways Hitched a ride Turned the tide To drown our sorrows even deeper And all your mothers, all of us We faced a living death Our babies were gone A pain so deep it makes it hard to breath To keep pushing on, and they said "Come now, the past is gone" These pains are yours as well These pains are yours as well You will carry them forward I see it now I see you suffering from a pain You can't explain But I see other things too I see you carrying music in the spirit of them all I see your love of language I see how words are your wide thighs How they hold up your house You have so many questions You'll know so much more than I And though I cannot tell you everything I can say, I know, in time All of this will be okay I can say, I know, in time All of this will be okay (c) annie bacon
2.
It's the same, every time, every place, everywhere I am fine, works on time, no need to complain Then one day I wake and there's No ground beneath my feet On their sticks, on a stage, spinning plates, can't keep up Though I race all around, the plates come crashing down And the sound, the fear of Breaking at whispers I'm so tired (so tired) And wondering Who's gonna hire me next? And how much (how much?) Will they need to know? And how deep (how deep?) Will their searches go? If it's this hard to get to 30, jesus christ, There should be a trophy for this Carrying this fear . . . But I always make it through I always make it through
3.
His silence is a pounding corps of drummers That follows me I duck into the shade of a cottonwood tree Whose leathery leaves are slapping in the wind And I almost forget those other spaces And empty places Til like dusk, or dark, rainclouds, His silence darkens And then the pounding begins again I find my solace alone, in my bed Around my head I position four pillows But my head rests only against the mattress Or on the crook of my arm That way I'll never lay accidentally Across even a rivulet of his fragrance Or even one eyelash He finds his solace against my sobbing Between a woman's hair and neck He buries himself in her hands So he cannot see me Cowering beneath the goose down He's never coming back to me And if he did I'd turn the drummers back on him And walk away (c) annie bacon
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Jeremy is lovely, he's got such a hold on me Jeremy is lovely, but I got eaten by a kudu Will he miss me now I'm gone? Can he even hear my song? Does my death mean that we're through? Oh Jeremy I love you.
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Promise you'll never leave me Promise you'll never go Promise you'll always be here Promises it's so I know it's all lies, cause how could you know? But promise me, lover, Promise you'll never go Every promise is an anchor Keeping me from drifting out Drifting out across the unkempt sea Of my fear and my doubt And I can find my own way back, and I will if I must. But I want you to promise, And I want me to trust (c) annie bacon
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Rena Lee 03:16
Rena Lee let's marry Rena Lee come on home tonight Rena Lee please callme Rena Lee let's not fight, oh please Bill your heart is broken Is that what you really want Bill? I can't come home tonight, you know. Rena I love you You broke my heart Bill you know I wanted to stay But life doesn't work quite that way Someone else had plans for me When he took my life away Rena I love you He broke my heart Now I wander the streets without you I always will
8.
Wind, or rain? Blowing blustering round Deep sounds, around city blocks There are wet tires on Jones Street Loud sounds of engines firing Isolated, lonely sounds Barely outlining the space around my bed Where I lay my head The thought is a feeling The feeling is a lack of feeling The feeling that it's impossible To touch this feeling To be touched at all But there is the thought But there is the thought The feeling's probably not The feeling's probably not The whole story. (c) annie bacon
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If you don't make up your mind I will go out of mine And I will leave you, faster than you can say again What you may or may not do If you won't come back to me I'll be alright, wait and see It won't be the first time, and god knows It won't be the last time It was a wet, fat, heavy one falling Late December and moving fast Passing seconds turn to years And these fantasies never last So you decide if you're out or in We were outside, the grass was wet It may have rained that day And I was wearing My "famous blue raincoat" You were smoking a cigarette Talking of Gabriel Garcia Marquez And watching me sideways While you talked to Jonah It was a wet, fat, heavy one falling Late December and moving fast Passing seconds turn to year And these fantasies never last So you decide if you're out or in Your eyelashes Slender planks I walk them like a fool The deep end I can't swim at this end of the pool I jumped in I thought that you were jumping too Now if you don't make up your mind I will go out of mine And I will leave you, faster than you can say again What you may or may not do (c) annie bacon
10.
Oh, Sadness 02:55
Oh, Sadness Are you trying to woo me? Away from the one who loves me Oh, Sadness Relentlessly you pursue me Did I make a promise and forget? You know I'm not the type of girl who Would deliberately mislead you Oh, Sadness The reasons are plenty Oh the passion is gone And I'm not getting what I need Oh, Sadness The end is upon us I'm dismantling your Raison d'etre on my shore (c) annie bacon
11.
Yer mama 03:25
Your mama came to my house last night She was completely naked and full of fright And your daddy came to my house last night too They asked how long should they stay? I said "I don't care if you never go away" Your sister came to my house last night Crying about some man The man, he came to my house last night too Crying about you They asked how long should they stay? I said "I don't care if you never go away" By the time that your brother arrived And found your family on the couch All curled and huddled in a cuddling puddle The winter sun was peeking out Jesus came to my house last night I said "no thank you, sir, I'm doing alright" He said "please! please! I need somewhere to go" Said "I've been running all night, and I run too slow" He asked how long should he stay I said "stay all night if you're gonna play nice" (c) annie bacon

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the first full-length album of annie bacon & her OSHEN. a lush, emotionally-driven rock album bursting with earnest and honest energy, hinting at Americana

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released June 1, 2012

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the OSHEN is:
annie bacon: Art McConell: Cristian
Hernandez: and Elizabeth Greenblatt

with special guests:
Henry Nagle: James Nash: Chris Pickering:
Matthew Souther: and Travis Mercer

Engineered, and mixed by Cristian Hernandez at The Tower Studios, San Francisco; except 5, mixed by
Matt Pavolaitis. Mastered by Ruairi O’Flaherty.

Produced by Cristian Hernandez with annie bacon.

All songs written by annie bacon. All arrangements by annie bacon & her OSHEN. Cover art by annie bacon

©(p) 2012 by annie bacon / oshen music

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annie bacon & her OSHEN Ann Arbor, Michigan

Annie Bacon is a songwriter musician in Michigan. She aches for a more empathic humanity + her creativity orbits around this. She also composed a Folk Opera.

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